The weeks roadblocks and what I did instead

 

Going into my long weekend I had many plans I wanted to work on; one especially was to do more wood carving under the microscope. Unfortunately, the university had another monkey wrench planned for me. I unexpectedly woke up sick on Sunday and have been sick for most of the week. Thankfully I am on the mend.

            Now why am I being brave enough to write a blog about being sick. Well, it’s a good reminder that you must be patient with yourself. I know I’m not the only one, but I do struggle with being patient at times. I have been sick in many different combinations, from my mental motivation, or what I am physically capable of doing. No matter the combination or the hiccups, everyone at some point in their life has faced something similar. Talking with a few people, I have concluded goals I have for my videos and my blog. The goal of no stress, purposeful distraction, and maybe gives inspiration and motivation to try something you have always wanted to. Or gives the courage to try again. I am a firm believer that despite how hectic life is getting, and the different stresses and challenges each person is facing. You need to take care of yourself. One of the ways I believe in taking care of myself is by “taking a break.” The break, however, needs to be something not related to your everyday life’s adventures. Sometimes the break is exploring and trying something new.

            The other way is true. One thing that I tend to struggle with is. When I am on the mend of being sick and feeling “capable,” just exhausted or easily becomes exhausted. It’s the mental verses physical battle. I want one thing but must be patient with my current energy level.

            The light bulb came on this week. I have posted a few full videos on YouTube this week. I took the easy way and did not put music to my carving. It would be cool, but I don’t want to mess with the copyrights and things. Too much of a headache at this point of my adventure. I focused more on learning the cameras I have, and different shooting angles. I have a lot to learn about editing software. It’s harder than expected. My goal is not to make perfect videos. My goal is to enjoy making videos and sharing how my work comes to life. Sharing the process so people can cherish the process like I do. I was able to do more editing on footage I had from the last few projects. I took a leap of faith out of my comfort zone this week as well and narrated over my work, explaining the process. To be honest, I have had this on my mind for like a week or so. The biggest thing holding me back was “not knowing what to say.” I needed to figure out a balance, because I am not wanting to make a “how to” video. And I don’t want the other side either of “talking about things not relevant to the video.” Which brings me back to the goals I found for my blog and videos, in simple terms “a fun and enjoyable.” I was creating more nerves and fear by over thinking. The best way and answer for me was to watch my video and “just have fun.” I know I have said something similar in multiple blogs. You can’t overthink, you need to be patient, and sometimes keeping things simple is better. Have I gotten a lot of views on my videos, No. Will that stop me from making more videos, No. Because I am learning and developing new and different skills that who knows what and where they my take me “I just have to keep trying and enjoying the journey.” Because I believe and want the content I create to be welcoming, and enjoyable. For when the person needs a break or distraction, they know my content is available and ready. It’s not perfect but enjoyable because I still have a lot to learn in these uncharted waters. I don’t strive for perfection. I strive for honest effort and learning to be better for the next one.

            Being sick this week, I started pondering how I develop and design necklaces and make them more intricate but elegant at the same time. I started brainstorming and writing important notes for what needs to be considered in each design. Will see what my future holds.