I kept coming back to the original

 

I have been pondering and wanting to make “a large project.” I haven’t done one for a while. However, I was at a loss for “what to make.” You know the constant struggle sometimes. The other side of the same struggle is “not liking your ideas.”

            I am currently making a pendant which “looks folded.” Last night I had an epiphany for an idea. Turn the folded heart idea “larger.” I had this idea when I was supper exhausted last night and when I woke up today, surprised I still remember it.” I have had many ideas when I have been trying to go to sleep and of course loved the idea, however, never remembered them in the morning.

            I was slow today starting to draw out my idea. For many reasons, mainly because motivation is a tricky thing, and you can’t force creativity. I also tend to be on the lazy side and very snail paced on Sundays. I am a personal believe there is nothing wrong with having “a me day.”

            Anyway, I started drawing and wanted to have a “twist pattern,” and fold like mix. Of course, the design is different from the necklace pendant. My goal is not duplication its inspiration. The main reason is because it will not be a full 3D design. I wanted the picture to be more fluent flowing with no stiff lines. I was feeling more of a fabric kind of design.

            Well, the adventures of trying to come up with a design. I can’t count how many times I started to draw, erase most of it and restart. I had many things to consider from the dividing lines which made it look natural. How I wanted the over and under to flow and in which direction. Not to bore you with more design logistics.

            I got to a point which I wasn’t sure of my idea. So, I started over on a new page in my book of secrets. I continued to draw out other ideas I thought were going to be better, they weren’t. The ideas which I thought I wanted to try to make. I was hoping for a theme of “strong love,” and combined heart strength, and courage. I want it to be a symbol of how love is created. That love is a combination of faith, hope, clarity, dedication, and commitment. Love is not a perfect science. Love is created through hardships, communication, and the desire to be there for each other. Love is knowing what truly matters and is important to your heart.

            Love is sculpted through time and effort. Love must be cultivated, nurtured, and cherished over time. To keep love strong, cherished, and valued you must continue to work, want it, and believe in its true value. Because love can be lost just as easily as it’s created.

            I started carving my first heart idea today. It has shown some interesting discoveries. Making abstract and dimensional designs. The first hurdle I found was “background depths.” The normal hurdles which I learned from the smaller project were the same in the bigger one. Such as different angles and viewpoints. It is harder because now it’s on a larger scale. I still must figure out what I want to put into the center of the heart. I am thinking “forever.” But I’m not sure yet. I am also not sure about putting a few words on the bigger open spaces at the bottom. I have learned that I don’t have to make the decision right now. Because I know as the project comes to life it will inspire and tell me what needs to be done.